sareini: "Things I am not allowed to do at Hogwarts, No.61" (Cats and Dragons)
2017-06-23 07:04 pm
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Post-Vet Visit

Callie weighs a very solid 3.42 kg. Ideally she should be closer to 3kg, but it's not a big problem as I've just switched up their feeding pattern from one big portion once a day to smaller and more frequent portions which should help with that. She's also got a mystery issue of dry coat and skin and dandruff/bald patches which we originally thought was flea allergy-related but as she's not had fleas for months obviously isn't the case. So she's got a supplement of oil stuff (evening primrose, salmon, omega 3 et al) to go in her food every day for a while. Lily will probably end up getting some too with the way they swap bowls, but it might well do her some good as well all things considered. Other than that, Callie is perfectly healthy and was very good at the vet, although I suspect a lot of that was do do with being slightly overawed and in shock from being outside of her comfort zone (ie. the house).

We also got to see a cat on a leash at the vets, although he had to go back into his carrier when a German Shepherd puppy came in. Apparently he was a Bengal cross so he'd been pretty easy to leash-train. When Callie was small I bought a kitten harness in the hopes of training her in the same way, but she just attacked it and tried to eat it whenever I brought it out.

The rest of the day was uneventful. Right now I'm just downloading Secret World Legends in preparations for the headstart in an hour or two and drinking milk. It's a rocking Friday night.
sareini: "Little one, I would like to see anyone - prophet, king or god - persuade 1000 cats to do anything at the same time." (1000 cats)
2017-06-22 07:38 pm

Thoughts on Characters and more

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day.

Firstly, and probably most importantly, Callie will be going to the vets for her yearly vaccinations. Even though both she and Lily are 100% indoor cats (aside from the .5% when she pokes her nose past the front door for a fleeting second) it's important to get the vaccinations because (a) you can never be too careful; and (b) because Lily is on long-term steroids now she can't get her vaccinations, so Callie needs to step up to provide the herd (clowder?) immunity. Callie is significantly easier to get into the carrier than Lily, what with being small enough still to be picked up and held with one arm and her not psychically knowing when it's time to get into the carrier like Lily can somehow sense. Once that part is done it's relatively easy and so routine that even I and my anxiety can't come up with anything to panic about.

Then, later on in the day I will be joining several friends and friends of friends in the headstart for Secret World Legends, the new f2p version of Funcom's The Secret World. It's a new game, so new characters for everyone... and that's been causing me some deep thought and anxiety over the last few days.

You see, I've had a small pool of characters that I play/write about for a very, very long time now - some of them have been around for nearly 30 years at this point. And so with maybe one or two exceptions, I don't like to create new characters; not when I've got these perfectly good characters that I can tweak to that purpose! Over the years I've become aware that these characters are also facets of myself in one way or another - Talia (who over the decades has also been known as Tiffany, Kimberley, Abigail and Rebecca) is how I wish I was; while James is the part of me that identifies as male and (poor thing) gets saddled with my mental illnesses and anxieties (and angst). There's a couple of others, but these are the two that have been with me the longest. When I write, they're the characters who'll turn up in just about everything, carefully shaped to fit the situation. And over the years they've helped me through a lot of things as well - they're not real, of course, but working out what they'd do or say to me in situations when I've had no-one else around to turn to has probably saved my life on at least one occasion.

So it's difficult for me to just create new characters, because to make the cut as a character they really have to have something that makes me attached to them, otherwise I lose interest very quickly. And I feel awkward about this, because in my past I've had people tell me how wrong this is or mock me for it, to the point where now I expect it from people automatically. Even explaining this here is making me feel weird because I never actually talk about this stuff.

On a related note I should probably get back on with the character backgrounds I've been working on for the versions of them in my current original universe brainworm...
sareini: Bub from Day of the Dead (bub!)
2017-06-21 10:04 pm

The Belko Experiment

There was supposed to be thunderstorms and (at the very least) rain today. When I briefly left the house this afternoon I could even feel it in the air. I could smell it in the air. But it never happened. So right now we're still sitting at 24 degrees C with the hope of it dropping again tonight like it did last night for a while, allowing Lily and I to sleep and feel a little better today. Although there's a possibility I'm getting either a kidney infection or a kidney stone now. Ow.

Today I finally managed to watch The Belko Experiment, having finally tracked down a decent copy. Its poster has a quote describing it as "Battle Royale meets Office Space!" and honestly, I take that as a challenge. It's a basic story: 80 employees of the Columbia branch of the Belko Corporation find themselves locked into their isolated office building and told that they have two hours to kill 30 of their fellow employees or 60 of them will die. Oh, and they all have mini-bombs implanted in the back of their skulls that explode if they try to escape or break the rules (they were told they were GPS trackers to guard against kidnapping). We then see the different reactions of several of the staff as they try to survive, with it ranging from the one guy who wants to try to save everyone without killing to the inevitable guy who would have eventually gone on a killing spree anyway (played by Dr Cox from Scrubs!), to the COO who decides that it's his responsibility to save as many people as possible, and the only way to do that is to execute 30 employees.

So it's an edgier version of Battle Royale but with adults and with a tacked-on "social experiment" explanation. And because nothing will ever beat Battle Royale in my heart, of course it's not as good. I mean, it's not bad, but it's not better than its obvious inspiration. There's moments of black comedy throughout - some moments are good, while others are too obvious and fall flat. I found myself more attached to incidental characters rather than the protagonists and antagonists, and I found the ending to be (a) predictable and (b) rather trite in one big way. But hey, James Gunn and Greg McLean (of Wolf Creek infamy) certainly tried hard. And it's very bloody - splattery, even. So in the end I guess I recommend it - just don't expect sublime things from it.
sareini: (hiding)
2017-06-20 08:57 pm

Still Hot, Now Sad

The continued heat, even at night, has started to cause me another problem: I can't sleep. Last night I tried using Nick's old room fan to cool things off a little, and while Callie was enthralled by it and the very concept of "wind inside a house", it came at a price: I couldn't hear my music over the noise of the fan, which meant I still couldn't sleep. So that, coupled with worried about Lily who's having a flare-up and several personal things getting to me and weighing down on me, left me feeling very depressed this morning. I tried calling my social worker, but even though she's back from her holiday she's now off sick, so I'm still left twisting in the wind and that only made me feel worse.

So, after curling up in bed with Lily who senses when I'm bad like this and came along to purr on me for three hours so I got some sleep, I decided to take quiet day today. Worked on Ross's birthday present, drank raspberry lemonade water and watched random stuff.

One thing I watched was a J-horror mockumentary found footage movie called Noroi The Curse. It's one of those movies that holds your attention for the near two-hour run time, but then when it ends you have to rush off to Wikipedia to work out what you just watched. I enjoyed it greatly - like I said, it held my attention for the whole thing, and was just the right amount of creepy without any overt jump scares - and with notes of Ghostwatch, The Blair Witch Project and a kernel of what would become Paranormal Activity but I also strongly suspect I'd have understood parts better if I had a better understanding of Japanese and Shinto customs.

Now I'm playing League of Legends (because what better thing to do when feeling low than play Abuse Simulator 2017?) and drinking yet more raspberry lemonade water, because that stuff is like crack.
sareini: "Did I mention that my nose was on fire? That I have fifteen wild badgers living in my trousers?" - Babylon 5 (Nose on fire)
2017-06-19 04:50 pm
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Hot Hot Hot

28 degrees C! I swear, we British are not equipped to deal with temperatures like this. Well, at the very least *I'm* not.

Lily has come up with the best way to beat the heat - she just climbs into the big cardboard box and goes to sleep in it. It's shady and cool and I wish I could fit in there with her. Callie just lies flat on the upstairs landing, where there are no windows and so it's a little cooler than the rest of the house. Meanwhile I sit and seriously debate the merits of just taking all my clothes off and pulling the blind down in the living room before I remember that still leaves me uncomfortably sticky and I can't go into the kitchen then.

I might have to put ice cubes in the cats' water soon, although whenever I did last year they just looked at me as if to say, "Mummy, why have you made the water lumpy?" Then Callie started trying to play with the floating ice cubes.

I know that others are enjoying the hot weather, and that's great. I just wish air conditioning was a thing in the UK for those of us who don't do well in the heat. If nothing else, it's sapping my concentration for doing stuff as well...
sareini: "Zog" - Babylon 5 (Zog)
2017-06-18 11:51 pm
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RIP Stephen Furst

I was going to post complaining about the heat and the stickiness and how I'm certain I have some sort of reverse SAD, but then I discovered that Stephen Furst died on Friday at 63.

I don't think I ever saw anything with him in that I didn't enjoy, but the two things that stand out the most for me are National Lampoon's Animal House and Babylon 5. The latter fandom has developed a little tradition when any of the cast pass away, that started with Citizen G'Kar/Andreas Katsoulas - it's said that they have travelled "beyond the Rim". So now Vir Cotto joins him, Dr. Franklin, Zack Allen and Mike Garabaldi as they travel beyond the Rim.

(I wanted to add the scene where Vir faces down a Technomage despite the terrifying illusions they throw at him, because, "
I work for Ambassador Mollari. After a while, nothing bothers you." but alas, no-one seems to have put that clip up on YouTube.)
sareini: (ringu)
2017-06-16 07:19 pm
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Friday Five for 16.6.17

1. Have you ever been to summer camp?

2. If so, was it fun or did you hate it?

3. If not, did you ever wish you had?

4. What movie says "Summer Time" to you?

5. Did movies like "Friday the 13th" put you off summer camp?

1. Summer camp isn't really a thing here in the UK - or at least it wasn't when I was growing up. Now they have PGL stuff for kids and families to go to, which is where my younger niece worked for a couple of years before buggering off to Australia with her boyfriend for two years.

I went to Guide camp a few times though. Mostly weekend stuff; I made it most of the way through a week-long camp once.

2. I did my best to enjoy myself; however the very first time I went on a weekend camp I broke into hysterics for no discernible reason on the Saturday night. When I got back I discovered that my father had been taken into hospital on the Saturday evening, and that was were he stayed for the next week until he died of cancer. So after that I developed a bad case of magical thinking - something bad will happen while I'm away from home. Which tended to put a damper on things. Plus I tended to be bullied, which didn't improve matters much. If I'd been left to my own devices a little more and we'd all understood why I'd develop a growing level of panic as the week went on, I'd probably have had a lot more fun.

3. Honestly, if I could do it over? I'd not have gone. Not because of fears of people dying, but because I was trying to do "normal" things to make other people happy, like socialising with people I didn't really like and doing things I didn't want to do. Now, of course, I know that there are better things I can do for that that don't involve sleeping in a tent with 4 strangers and having to do washing up on the ground next to a patch of nettles (ask me about my allergy to Sting-Eze after that!)

4. ...this is a question I've never thought of before. The first movie that comes to mind for it is Grease; I think more because of the fact that it seemed to be on TV every summer holiday when I was growing up.

5. If any horror movie was going to have put me off summer camp, it would have been Sleepaway Camp. Not because of the murders, but because of all the horrible, bullying kids there.

(From here.)
sareini: Bruce Campbell as Elvis from Bubba Ho-Tep (Bubba Ho-Tep)
2017-06-14 04:54 pm
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Tom Cruise Crazy

I went to see The Mummy this afternoon, fully expecting it to be a hot steaming pile of poop considering the pounding it's been taking in the press since its release.

It was not quite as bad as I'd been expecting, mainly due to the presence of Russell Crowe as Dr Henry Jekyll and Sofia Boutella as the evil Egyptian mummy princess. The former managed to pretty much steal the show for me and the latter was both pretty to watch and had that quality of looking waif-like but being able to knock people around the room at a moment's notice.

On the other hand, it's never good to remind your audience of other, better films that they could be watching, and yet that's what this film did (An American Werewolf in London, Hellraiser, any of the Blind Dead films, any of the previous Mummy films except possibly the last one... any film with Michael Caine in it...). And it was most definitely a Tom Cruise Movie - as in Tom Cruise played a Tom Cruise character and the film was set up around him so that he could look, say and do badass things (like the bit where he pushes the blonde protagonist/love interest out of the way of a careening-on-its-side London bus and then leaps perfectly through its shattered windscreen to land effortlessly in a seat a few rows back). Johnathan Coulton's Tom Cruise Crazy kept playing in my head throughout the film. And when it wasn't, I was wondering if Tom Cruise's character could have been replaced with Nathan Drake from the Uncharted series and if anyone would have noticed.

Of course, any and all credibility went right out the window when the protagonists went into a chamber where liquid mercury was literally dripping from the ceiling, and none of them died of mercury poisoning within hours.

But to be fair, I am interested where they're going with this whole "Dark Universe" franchise. Especially with Dr. Jekyll. I could see something interesting coming from that...
sareini: "It's been lovely, but I have to scream now" (Scream)
2017-06-11 10:48 pm

Personal Space

Earlier today I was sitting at my computer in the front room, which is right in front of the window. Callie was in the windowsill, happily trying to catch moths and watching people pass by. I had the blind mostly drawn down, but there was still a good 10 inches to see out of the window.

Two people walked past, which I only half-saw from the other side of the monitor. I did see enough to see one of them stop and point at Callie, which is fine; people see cats in windows and tend to talk to them. I do so myself all the time.

Then I see one of the two bend down and press her face right into the window, looking not just at Callie but at my front room itself. Now bear in mind that I'm sitting no more than two feet from where she's looking in, and I know she can see me as easily as I can see her. She ignores me completely and continues to look into my house like she's window shopping or something, and startling poor Callie into the bargain as she clearly didn't like the extreme close-up either. After about 30 seconds, the woman walks away without a word.

Yesterday when I was in town I decided to treat myself to a lemonade at Costa Coffee. I got lucky, and they're now doing a raspberry lemonade as well, so I had one of those and an egg mayo sandwich. The only place to sit and eat was in the outdoor area, so I went and sat at a table in a corner. No more than two minutes later two teenage boys came over and sat down at the table next to mine... except one of them was not happy with the space he had and started trying to push my table further into the corner so he had more space. He never once looked in my direction even though it was pretty clear I was there.

Then a couple of his friends turned up and this guy stood up to talk to them. Except he didn't just stand up, he leant forward and into me, pushing me aside while he talked with his friends, without a single word. A couple of minutes later, some more friends turned up and he did it again. This time one of his friends noticed what he was doing and looked shocked, but never said anything (they did kind of mouth an apology as they left).

Did I miss the memo where it was decreed that people could disregard others' personal space at will now? This sort of thing freaks me out incredibly, for obvious reasons, and both times I ended up sick and panicking afterwards because of it. Maybe I should start carrying a long, sharp needle to jab at people who pull this crap in future...
sareini: A Procrastinator's work is never done! (Procrastination)
2017-06-10 06:30 pm

Saturday Musings and Links

It's been an interesting couple of days, hasn't it?

I wasn't expecting Labour to get a landslide victory out of nowhere in the general election, so I am more than pleasantly surprised to see them manage to knock the hell out of the Conservatives' majority. Teresa May's gambit really blew up in her face and now it's just counting down the months before she's out of 10 Downing Street (Larry the Cat, of course, remains). In my area Labour won again (we've been Labour since the constituency was formed in 1950 and at this point I think it would take the offer of a free unicorn and maybe a blowjob for ever voter to change things), but with a majority of just under 4k, which is slightly worrying. It was just Labour and the Tories in the fight; everyone else was so low that I doubt they even got their deposits back.

If this guy had been standing in my area, I'd have voted for him in a heartbeat though.

I went into town today and bought myself some (more) notebooks. One will be for worldbuilding stuff, one will be for character building stuff, and the last will be for the times when I want to write fanfic with my OCs (that I may or may not ever post anywhere, because OCs). My stationary compulsion continues unabated.

And RIP Adam West.
sareini: (creative)
2017-06-09 02:11 pm

(Fiction) Notes From a Future History Lesson

Fandom: Original
Prompt: Underground Forces Unleashed
Word count: 657
Ratings/Content Notes: PG
Summary History is written by the victors, even if the victors aren't who you might expect...

(For [community profile] tic_tac_woe )

Read more... )
sareini: (thoughtful)
2017-06-09 12:17 pm
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Friday Five for 9.6.17

1) What was the first recipe or food you learned how to cook?

2) What recipe or food did you cook most recently?

3) What recipe or food do you cook most often?

4) What is your favorite recipe?

5) What is the recipe you make that impresses other people the most?

1) - It would be either apple crumble (from Year 7 Domestic Science - Food) or scrambled eggs (from my own learning when my mother first became sick and she could no longer stop me from using the kitchen (to say my mother was over-protective at times would be something of an understatement).

2) - Burgers and potato waffles. It would have been cheeseburgers in buns, but I forgot to buy the cheese. and the buns.

3) - Sausages and potato waffles. Or, more generally, potato waffles. I like potato waffles.

4) - My sausage and bean casseroles, which I really should start making again. It's very easy to tweak the recipe to include just about anything and in the slow cooker it's incredibly easy to make.

5) - I've not cooked for anyone in a while. Nick used to say that I cooked chips, burgers and steak to (his standards of, which in the case of steak was well done to charcoal) perfection. I've been praised for my Nutella cupcakes and maple and pecan muffins. And I devised walnut and pine nut fried rice for my vegan friend once that went down surprisingly well.

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sareini: Bruce Campbell as Elvis from Bubba Ho-Tep (Bubba Ho-Tep)
2017-06-08 09:47 pm

Wednesday and Thursday

Yesterday was more interesting than expected.

The original plan was that my brother was coming down to visit; he'd drive Lily and I to the vets for her monthly checkup (Lily is still fine, put on another 300g so now we're having to try to fix that; personally I'm happy because she had been losing a ton of weight before we got this condition under control so as long as she's not losing weight things are still going well); then go to lunch and then the cinema to see Wonder Woman (again).

Then I found out I needed cat food, so a trip to the pet store was added.

Then yesterday morning I went to put some rubbish in the bin in the back yard... and discovered that Marley had killed another pigeon and left it for me. And unfortunately this had happened several days ago, during which time nature had gone and natured all over it.

So when my poor brother arrived I handed him a pair of rubber gloves and several plastic bags and asked if he would be so kind as to help me out before I vomited uncontrollably everywhere. Thankfully he was okay with it.

(I'm trying to work out if Marley is leaving me these pigeons as some sort of offering to me as the human who provides Second Breakfast or if he's just too lazy to drag his kill home. It could go either way, really.)

The rest of the day went pretty much as planned; brother enjoyed Wonder Woman greatly; I came home and was once again shattered from a day being social with people and slept so long Lily started worrying that I wouldn't wake up.

Today is Election Day here in the UK; I went out and did my civic duty (in the rain). I have no illusions about the Tories getting booted out of 10 Downing Street, but I am at least hopeful that neither they nor UKIP get in here and Labour continues to retain. Other than that, the only other thing of note is that I actually finished a story! I'm so very proud of myself. Now I'm just waiting for my volunteer beta readers to look it over and then I might actually dare to post it...
sareini: Amanda from the Saw movies wearing an reverse bear trap (Saw)
2017-06-06 02:31 pm
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The Originals

Despite the fact that I already have more than enough TV shows to try to keep up with (Twin Peaks, American Gods, Supernatural, Criminal Minds and more...) this weekend I started watching The Originals on Netflix. It's a vampire/supernatural show; a spinoff from The Vampire Diaries which I never really got into despite trying twice. But somehow The Originals has drawn me in; I think it's because it tends towards balls-to-the-wall ridiculousness.

The show centres around three vampire siblings, the Mikaelsons, who are 1,000 years old and the very first vampires, hence the title The Originals". One is a dilettante, one is the "honourable" one who tries to keep everyone friendly all the time, and one is psychotic and a hybrid werewolf/vampire. And all three, as well as just about every other main or semi-main character, seems to be a proud graduate of the Starscream School for Backstabbing. Every single episode has at least one character making secret plans against another character (or faction) - usually Klaus, the psychotic one - and nearly all of them end badly for someone who isn't the target. It's like the most bloodthirsty version of speed chess ever.

The show also goes through plot arcs like they're going out of fashion as well, and I think it's this point that's captured my attention the most. It reminds me somehow of the old daytime soap opera Sunset Beach, which I watched when I was a new student last millennium. That was a batshit crazy show as well, the high point of which was a Christmas episode in which someone literally descended into hell (It ruined itself with its final episode, when it was revealed that it was all one character's dream just before her wedding, because you never go with the "It was all just a dream!" resolution unless you're The Wizard of Oz.) I'm only just over halfway through the first season and already we've had about five or six major plot events happen. I think I'm just too curious/fascinated to find out what's going to happen next - 10 Biblical Plagues? Human hunters? Klaus does something nice for selfless reasons?
sareini: The truth shall make thee fret - Discworld (The Truth)
2017-06-04 10:19 pm

Wonder Woman Vs Reality

I was at the cinema yesterday with my friend Ross, for our Nick Whitehouse Memorial Moviewatching Day. (we normally hold it at my house, but Ross didn't feel well enough for pizza or a late night so we hit the cinema instead.) We saw Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 (second time for me) and Wonder Woman (first time for both of us).

So you can safely count me among the throng who thought Wonder Woman was really, really, really good. In keeping with my usual pop culture descriptions of movies: Diana of Themyscira teams up with Captain Kirk, Gomez Addams in a fez, a Native American and No True Scotsman (you'll understand that when you see the film) to fight the Axeman of New Orleans (I spent most of the film staring at him and questioning whether he was Walter Bishop from Fringe or not, but no, I knew him from American Horror Story). I really enjoyed the way the film managed to surprise me and subvert my expectations on more than one occasion, thus making it considerably better and more original than the majority of films out there right now (and never mind superhero films). It also did a good job of reminding us about the fact that war is nasty, horrible stuff, rather than the great and noble enterprise that many other war films (or films that feature wars) tend to do.

When I woke up this morning and saw the news of yet another bunch of shitgibbons in London who thought that the best way to get on the ins with their god was to go on a rampage, I was left feeling both very tired and depressed. Seeing all of this endless hatred on both sides, each trying to one-up the other it seems, does my mental state no good whatsoever, because I just can't understand how twisted up all these people are. For most of my life I've constructed elaborate fantasy worlds to retreat to whenever bored, distressed, scared or for any other reason (At one point my mother sent me to a child psychologist because she was deeply concerned that I was spending more time in my imagination than in the "real world", which didn't go well at all, but that's another story). It's on days like this that I want to go back to those worlds, because the "real world" is just too depressing and bad nowadays. At least in the worlds of superheroes, you can still have hope that there's someone out there who can save the day.
sareini: following my fish (delirium)
2017-06-02 10:02 pm
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Tour de Sock

I have a fair bit of sock yarn about the house, because of my Sock Yarn subscription. I tell myself I have plans for them - shawls, scarves, maybe even socks! - but I make so many plans and start so many things that the poor skeins are still waiting to be used.

Well, the other day I heard about a thing called the Tour de Sock. It's based on the Tour de France, only with sock knitting instead of cycling. The idea is that you pay $7.50 (which goes to Doctors Without Borders) and you get six sock patterns to knit. The idea is to knit them as fast as you can, and the fastest knitters get prizes.

Now, I have no illusions about my knitting speed. I knit like glaciers used to move before global warming. But Doctors Without Borders is a good cause, and six sock patterns for $7.50 is a good deal. And I have sock yarn. And I've been meaning to work on my sock knitting skills. So I signed up.

The whole thing doesn't start till July, along with the cycling, but I'm mildly excited. Should certainly be interesting and a learning experience, at the very least.
sareini: "Did I mention that my nose was on fire? That I have fifteen wild badgers living in my trousers?" - Babylon 5 (Nose on fire)
2017-06-01 04:28 pm

New Month, New Goals!

I've decided I'm going to try to be somewhat more organised for June. To that end, I've set myself a few goals for the month.

1. Write at least 15k; fiction and movie reviews. Should be pretty easy, right?
2. Publish at least 8 movie reviews; that works out at two a week.
3. Write at least 250 words of fiction a day.
4. Finish at least two stories - perhaps my biggest challenge as I'm great at starting things, but not so good at finishing them as the self-doubt creeps in.
5. Finish the Shawl of Secrets - probably the easiest one as I'm about 90% done as it is. A couple of days sitting mining/watching stuff should do it.
6. Finish Rachael's birthday cardigan and possibly my own (fingers crossed!)

I don't think those goals are too bad or stressful.

I've also started work on my brother's birthday present - his birthday is in August so I figure starting now will give me a good chance of finishing on time. I'm doing him this, as he likes to put up 70s and 80s album covers as art. Also last Christmas I made my niece a cross stitch picture of Harry Potter spells which was remarkably well-received, so I figured I'd continue the trend. (It should be noted that I was stitching that thing up to 11pm on the 23rd December.)


In other news, Lily is much better today. No vomiting and her mood has perked up considerably. I'm going to keep an eye on her for now but no longer feeling the need to rush her to the vet when there would be very little they could do other than tweak her meds and hope that worked. I am looking at making her diet more strict to see if a blander diet might help - duck, turkey, chicken; occasional treats of tuna loin and scrambled eggs (made with water). Thankfully that's all stuff Lily already loves, so she'll just have to get used to not getting bits of grated cheese or the cream from doughnuts any more...
sareini: (hiding)
2017-05-31 03:58 pm


Anxiety levels are through the roof again today.

Lily has been sick twice (so far) today, out of nowhere. She did get into my dinner last night which was a Three Cheese Pasta Melt, so maybe the fatty greasy food upset her stomach a little. Or maybe the dosage of her meds needs adjusting. Either way I have to wait till tomorrow to see how she is before deciding whether to take her to the vets' again, so in the meantime my body works itself into a state of high anxiety. She's up on the desk with me right now and she was playing with Callie a little earlier, but I still can't stop myself from panicking. I thought we had finally gotten a hold on things (again) but it seems that every time I dare to think that things go wrong again instead.

Meanwhile, it took me all of two days to decide to reactivate my main character in EVE and apply to rejoin Karmafleet. Got back in with no problems, but due to my general streak of luck with regards to tech, I didn't get access to the forums and Mumble comms back till last night. So now I have Mumble on, and I'm sitting in the comms... but I can't bring myself to speak. I don't know anyone in comms, and so whenever I try to say something my voice just dries up with terror and I can't do it. And it doesn't help that my headset mic is several inches from my mouth and can't be moved because it's set in molded plastic, so I have to fiddle with volume settings to even try to be heard.

So yeah. Not enjoying today.
sareini: A quote from the book Good Omens (Good Omens)
2017-05-29 01:17 pm
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Friday Five for 26.5.17 (Time Warp Edition!)

Because the Friday Five was a little late this (last?) week...

1. What is your current main mode of transportation? e.g. car, bike, subway, walking etc.
2. Are you satisfied with your current main mode of transportation (answer to question 1)? Why?
3. Do you think you'll change your means of transit soon? e.g. buy a car, get rid of your car, walk more etc.? If so why?
4. If time distance and money were not factors how do you prefer to get from point A to point B?
5. What was your worst transit experience?

1. It's a combination of walking (very short distances as I don't like to go out), buses and taxis. I'd walk more if the anxiety didn't leave me a shut-in most of the time.

2. Taxis are expensive, but they're the only way to get to some places (like the vets, or home from grocery shopping at Tesco's). Buses are cheaper but often crowded and I occasionally get the paranoid belief that people on the bus are watching me or reading my thoughts. I like walking but it takes the longest and that doesn't fare well for the anxiety. So in conclusion, all my modes of transport have their problems, but they're not things I can easily fix so I'm stuck with them.

3. I'd like to walk more, but see above. The longer I'm out of the house, the more I panic; plus I get paranoid that people are going to randomly shout abuse at me from passing cars. So unless I win the lottery and hire a chauffeur or wake up tomorrow completely cured of all my mental illnesses, I can't see anything changing.

4. Trains. Trains are nice. Yes, they can get crowded too, but you can wedge yourself into a window seat and just stare out the window at the pretty countryside and play cow/sheep/horse spotting for the entire journey.

5. Oh, this one might be a long one. Way, way back in 2001 Nick and I went on holiday to Disneyland Paris (the holiday itself was great). On leaving day, we went to get on the coach to take us to the airport... only to be denied by the driver who believed we were scamming a ride (he thought our tickets were invalid). Eventually we got proof from the travel agent that the tickets were fine, but we had to get a different coach and so missed our plane. Then we spent eight hours in Charles De Gaulle airport trying to get another flight, being told we needed about £600 to even get put on a list for tickets and discovering that the airport actually closed at midnight, before our travel agent finally stepped in and saved us before we had to go native or find an underground poker game in the hopes that Nick could win us the money to get home without having to use me as collateral. Did I mention that Nick spoke all of two words of French and so I had to translate/negotiate everything?

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sareini: "Little one, I would like to see anyone - prophet, king or god - persuade 1000 cats to do anything at the same time." (1000 cats)
2017-05-28 01:39 pm
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Box Wars

There are two large cardboard boxes in the office. One is what the cat tree came in; I can't remember what the other one once contained, but it doesn't matter. The boxes now belong to the cats.

When it gets too hot, I often find Lily snoozing in one of them. Callie likes to chew on them (for reasons known only to her; she's a devil for cardboard) or practice shredding things with her claws on them. And today I just got to witness a half-hour game of Box Wars.

The rules of Box Wars seem to be quite simple: there is a box, and both cats want to be in the box. But there is only room for one cat in the box, and so they must fight, beguile, chase and/or trick the cat in the box into coming out of the box. Then they can get into the box, and everything starts again.

Of course, just being a human there's probably a lot of stuff I'm missing (is there a points system? Fouls? Do the rules change depending on the number of cats?), but at the same time there is endless amusement in watching Lily and Callie chasing each other, batting each other, pouncing and rolling and generally having immense fun just so they can sit in a box for a minute or so.