sareini: "chocolate: the other major food group!" (Chocolate)
I appear to have picked up another (couple of) colour list(s)...

Golden Globe )


Rust )
sareini: (creative)
Title: Riposte
Story: My as-yet unnamed Renaissance/Steampunk/magic universe Update: I'm now calling it "Stormborn", at least until I get a better name...
Colours: Fog Grey #4 (clear blue sky); Golden Globe #4 (I want to be alone) ( [community profile] rainbowfic ) 
Styles/Supplies: Graffiti ( Short Films ); canvas ( [community profile] rainbowfic )
Prompt: Bruises ( [community profile] allbingo )
Word Count: 722
Rating: PG for one moment of language
Characters: Talia; Iacopo; Dario (mentioned)

Tali sat on the rock... )
sareini: A Procrastinator's work is never done! (Procrastination)
I figured I needed to make a list and plan out which of the many, many projects I'm currently working on need to be done first and in what order.

Knitting/Crochet/Cross Stitch:

- Ross's birthday is on July 12, so of course his cross stitch project is the most urgent to be finished, although that won't be too difficult.
- Next up is my niece's cardigan and my brother's cross stitch birthday present, which will both need to be done by mid-August when (theoretically) I'll next be visiting.
- Everything else (Horror Movie Villain cross stitch, cardigans and scarves and other things for me) is for me and can therefore be worked on whenever.

Movie Reviews:

- July is time for my twice-yearly Franchise Marathon, and this time around I've picked the Howling franchise to work my way through, because I've been neglecting werewolves for a good while now (mainly because very few werewolf films have ever truly grabbed me). So starting July 1 I've got the eight movies in the series to go through, which also means sourcing them (and two of them have already proven to be remarkably difficult to find, even with all the resources I have at hand), watching them ahead of time and writing the reviews. As long as I can keep at least a day ahead of the current film, I'll be fine.
- I've also got a couple of other movies heavily noted and ready to be written up, but they won't be needed till after the 8th, so no rush there.
- I really need to watch some more movies from my Huge Pile O' DVDs/Blu-Rays before they become sentient and start eating the house.

Writing:

- I need to write more stuff. That's all. Worldbuilding, character stuff, fanfic, whatever.
- I might want to stop grabbing bingo prompt cards... but nah.
sareini: "Little one, I would like to see anyone - prophet, king or god - persuade 1000 cats to do anything at the same time." (1000 cats)
Tomorrow is going to be a busy day.

Firstly, and probably most importantly, Callie will be going to the vets for her yearly vaccinations. Even though both she and Lily are 100% indoor cats (aside from the .5% when she pokes her nose past the front door for a fleeting second) it's important to get the vaccinations because (a) you can never be too careful; and (b) because Lily is on long-term steroids now she can't get her vaccinations, so Callie needs to step up to provide the herd (clowder?) immunity. Callie is significantly easier to get into the carrier than Lily, what with being small enough still to be picked up and held with one arm and her not psychically knowing when it's time to get into the carrier like Lily can somehow sense. Once that part is done it's relatively easy and so routine that even I and my anxiety can't come up with anything to panic about.

Then, later on in the day I will be joining several friends and friends of friends in the headstart for Secret World Legends, the new f2p version of Funcom's The Secret World. It's a new game, so new characters for everyone... and that's been causing me some deep thought and anxiety over the last few days.

You see, I've had a small pool of characters that I play/write about for a very, very long time now - some of them have been around for nearly 30 years at this point. And so with maybe one or two exceptions, I don't like to create new characters; not when I've got these perfectly good characters that I can tweak to that purpose! Over the years I've become aware that these characters are also facets of myself in one way or another - Talia (who over the decades has also been known as Tiffany, Kimberley, Abigail and Rebecca) is how I wish I was; while James is the part of me that identifies as male and (poor thing) gets saddled with my mental illnesses and anxieties (and angst). There's a couple of others, but these are the two that have been with me the longest. When I write, they're the characters who'll turn up in just about everything, carefully shaped to fit the situation. And over the years they've helped me through a lot of things as well - they're not real, of course, but working out what they'd do or say to me in situations when I've had no-one else around to turn to has probably saved my life on at least one occasion.

So it's difficult for me to just create new characters, because to make the cut as a character they really have to have something that makes me attached to them, otherwise I lose interest very quickly. And I feel awkward about this, because in my past I've had people tell me how wrong this is or mock me for it, to the point where now I expect it from people automatically. Even explaining this here is making me feel weird because I never actually talk about this stuff.

On a related note I should probably get back on with the character backgrounds I've been working on for the versions of them in my current original universe brainworm...
sareini: A Procrastinator's work is never done! (Procrastination)
It's been an interesting couple of days, hasn't it?

I wasn't expecting Labour to get a landslide victory out of nowhere in the general election, so I am more than pleasantly surprised to see them manage to knock the hell out of the Conservatives' majority. Teresa May's gambit really blew up in her face and now it's just counting down the months before she's out of 10 Downing Street (Larry the Cat, of course, remains). In my area Labour won again (we've been Labour since the constituency was formed in 1950 and at this point I think it would take the offer of a free unicorn and maybe a blowjob for ever voter to change things), but with a majority of just under 4k, which is slightly worrying. It was just Labour and the Tories in the fight; everyone else was so low that I doubt they even got their deposits back.

If this guy had been standing in my area, I'd have voted for him in a heartbeat though.

I went into town today and bought myself some (more) notebooks. One will be for worldbuilding stuff, one will be for character building stuff, and the last will be for the times when I want to write fanfic with my OCs (that I may or may not ever post anywhere, because OCs). My stationary compulsion continues unabated.

And RIP Adam West.
sareini: (creative)
Fandom: Original
Prompt: Underground Forces Unleashed
Word count: 657
Ratings/Content Notes: PG
Summary History is written by the victors, even if the victors aren't who you might expect...

(For [community profile] tic_tac_woe )

Read more... )
sareini: Bruce Campbell as Elvis from Bubba Ho-Tep (Bubba Ho-Tep)
Yesterday was more interesting than expected.

The original plan was that my brother was coming down to visit; he'd drive Lily and I to the vets for her monthly checkup (Lily is still fine, put on another 300g so now we're having to try to fix that; personally I'm happy because she had been losing a ton of weight before we got this condition under control so as long as she's not losing weight things are still going well); then go to lunch and then the cinema to see Wonder Woman (again).

Then I found out I needed cat food, so a trip to the pet store was added.

Then yesterday morning I went to put some rubbish in the bin in the back yard... and discovered that Marley had killed another pigeon and left it for me. And unfortunately this had happened several days ago, during which time nature had gone and natured all over it.

So when my poor brother arrived I handed him a pair of rubber gloves and several plastic bags and asked if he would be so kind as to help me out before I vomited uncontrollably everywhere. Thankfully he was okay with it.

(I'm trying to work out if Marley is leaving me these pigeons as some sort of offering to me as the human who provides Second Breakfast or if he's just too lazy to drag his kill home. It could go either way, really.)

The rest of the day went pretty much as planned; brother enjoyed Wonder Woman greatly; I came home and was once again shattered from a day being social with people and slept so long Lily started worrying that I wouldn't wake up.

Today is Election Day here in the UK; I went out and did my civic duty (in the rain). I have no illusions about the Tories getting booted out of 10 Downing Street, but I am at least hopeful that neither they nor UKIP get in here and Labour continues to retain. Other than that, the only other thing of note is that I actually finished a story! I'm so very proud of myself. Now I'm just waiting for my volunteer beta readers to look it over and then I might actually dare to post it...
sareini: "Did I mention that my nose was on fire? That I have fifteen wild badgers living in my trousers?" - Babylon 5 (Nose on fire)
I've decided I'm going to try to be somewhat more organised for June. To that end, I've set myself a few goals for the month.

1. Write at least 15k; fiction and movie reviews. Should be pretty easy, right?
2. Publish at least 8 movie reviews; that works out at two a week.
3. Write at least 250 words of fiction a day.
4. Finish at least two stories - perhaps my biggest challenge as I'm great at starting things, but not so good at finishing them as the self-doubt creeps in.
5. Finish the Shawl of Secrets - probably the easiest one as I'm about 90% done as it is. A couple of days sitting mining/watching stuff should do it.
6. Finish Rachael's birthday cardigan and possibly my own (fingers crossed!)

I don't think those goals are too bad or stressful.

I've also started work on my brother's birthday present - his birthday is in August so I figure starting now will give me a good chance of finishing on time. I'm doing him this, as he likes to put up 70s and 80s album covers as art. Also last Christmas I made my niece a cross stitch picture of Harry Potter spells which was remarkably well-received, so I figured I'd continue the trend. (It should be noted that I was stitching that thing up to 11pm on the 23rd December.)

***

In other news, Lily is much better today. No vomiting and her mood has perked up considerably. I'm going to keep an eye on her for now but no longer feeling the need to rush her to the vet when there would be very little they could do other than tweak her meds and hope that worked. I am looking at making her diet more strict to see if a blander diet might help - duck, turkey, chicken; occasional treats of tuna loin and scrambled eggs (made with water). Thankfully that's all stuff Lily already loves, so she'll just have to get used to not getting bits of grated cheese or the cream from doughnuts any more...
sareini: A quote from the book Good Omens (Good Omens)
I'm setting off to my brother's in about an hour or so, for my niece's birthday/Eurovision party (and to see them, of course). I haven't managed to finish the cardigan, of course, but I'm still taking it with me to (a) prove it exists; and (b) work on it a bit more while I'm there.

I'm only staying the night because I get way too anxious about being away from home and the cats for more than a night. This is despite knowing that the cats will be fine for a day or two as long as they have enough food and water, and having my friend Ross come round this evening to refill food and water bowls and provide medication. Lily absolutely loves Ross and thinks he's the best thing since Brian Kendrick. Callie is far less confident around him because he comes from Outside and is not me, so she will probably just stay upstairs lying flat on the bed.

My train tickets are already booked and ready to be picked up, my journey is planned out and I even selected window seats so I can be in my comfort zone. The only real problem is that the final part of my journey will be by replacement bus service, as Merseyrail are in the middle of a huge track upgrade. I'm not very fond of rail replacement buses as they're usually dirty and cramped and not that reliable, but my choices are limited so I'll have to take deep breaths and get through it.

I am taking my laptop with me so I can at least try to blog and chat about Eurovision while I'm there, but my niece wants to play Rift: Godstorm with us all during the show (she does not understand the seriousness of the most camp show in all of Europe). I'll also get to meet Rogue the Rottweiler and give him his pig's ear and dog beer, and see my niece's cat Sammy and let him complain to me about the dog that's taken up residence in his house. I'm also going to take a writing book and pen with me in case I get the time to try to dash something off roughly, but between family, cats, dogs, rabbits and Eurovision I'm not sure that will be too likely.

Otherwise I'll be back tomorrow evening.
sareini: Five Exclamation Marks, the sure sign of an unstable mind (Five Exclamation Marks)
This post is where I'm keeping the prompt lists and bingo cards I've picked in May 2017 to work on. As I write stories for them, I'll link to each completed prompt. In theory, this should all work very well and I should get some nice bingos and filled prompt lists...

Bingo Card 1 - Hurt/Comfort )


Prompt List 1 - Fog Grey )


Bingo Card 2 - Gen/Romance/Kink )
sareini: Any connection between your reality and mine is purely coincidental (Reality)
One of the goals I set myself when I decided to start journaling again was to write more fiction, be it fanfic or original, and actually be brave enough to post some of it. Kind of a silly thing to have anxiety about seeing as I self-published several short erotic fiction stories a few years ago and made money off them, but anxiety and mental illness is like that, isn't it? In the distant past, writing also helped a lot with my depression - back when I was 18-19, a friend and I co-wrote (half of) a bizarre epic called Love In The Jaws Of Cthulhu, which did me a lot of good as I was on antidepressants that weren't doing me any good at that time and so I could pour out my angst on the pages. (Today the only thing of all that that I'm still proud of is probably the title.) So, mindful of this goal, this week I started writing down character notes and worldbuilding stuff for a potential originalfic universe I've wanted to get down on paper for a while.

Of course, I also started playing Dragon Age: Inquisition this week as well. And after a day or so of that, new little muses started jumping up and down as well, clamouring to be heard. Gradually, they got louder and louder, and more and more difficult to ignore. So I guess I'm now writing a totally different universe - supernatural fantasy world, set in a Renaissance-esque period and following the younger members of one of the ruling families of that world, and their friends, confidents and lovers. There's going to be mages, vampires, ghosts and more. And a poly het relationship, a lesbian relationship and (eventually) a male gay relationship, because apparently I like to cover all my bases.

What I've also done, which is pretty brave of me considering my anxiety levels when it comes to interacting sometimes, is join some prompt and bingo communities, for both the prompts and the impetus to actually write, finish and post stuff. In another post I'm going to put the prompt lists and bingo cards for reference and so I can fill them in as I finish things, but I've also got to try to limit myself from not just picking every list, table or card that vaguely appeals to me because I just can't decide what I want to do.

I may also employ a couple of friends to periodically poke me about how the writing is going, because the best the cats do is sit on the writing pads I use or try to eat the pen.
sareini: ('everything is true')
I've been tired all weekend and I'm not really sure why. Either I've been sleeping badly and not noticing (I'm one of those people who sometimes dreams of not being able to fall asleep, thus completely confusing the fuck out of my already addled brain and leaving me exhausted in the morning), or Friday's cinema trip was more emotionally draining than I realised (it was a pretty busy screening for 1pm on a Friday). Either way I've spent a fair amount of time in bed, doing very little and/or dozing.

***

One thing I did do yesterday was watch a horror movie called The Dark Tapes, a found-footage anthology movie that felt to me like it was trying to fill the void left by the V/H/S series. Apparently it's been winning awards on the festival circuit and getting good reviews in lots of places... which makes me feel slightly guilty that I really didn't like it.

Probably some spoilers here )


***

Despite knowing better, I continue to play League of Legends on weekends. At this point I think I deserve every bad game I get just because I won't follow my own advice and not play. There is little more frustrating than going 4/0/1 in your lane making sure your lane opponent can do very little but lament his choices in life, then have your team come mid and feed him kill after kill so that he ends up carrying his team to victory.

***

I am vaguely toying with the idea of some Loki: Agent of Asgard fic stuff. It's kind of nibbling at me right now. We shall see.
sareini: default (Default)
I just spent the last two or three days searching for a very specific piece of information. I needed it for my Champions Online character, so that I could write his background better and not make some big mistake in connecting the background I was writing with the background of the CO universe.

...yes, this is even though my CO subscription runs out in about a week and a half. (Nick's response upon finding out why I'd been obsessively searching for two days and eventually clogged up the downloader for ten hours last night: "But you're not even going to be playing Champions!")

This, I think, is a side-effect of being both a roleplayer and a writer - and also in my case, of having mild OCD. I have to make sure that everything in my character makes sense, regardless of how important that detail might be or how much I'm actually going to be playing the character. (this character, incidentally, is my 'main' in CO, an alternate version of my 'main' in City of Heroes, so he'd be played a lot in theory) It also makes me curious, though - am I just a slightly-obsessive abberation, even among roleplayers, or is this something that others do as well? Is this also connected to the fact that I consider myself a 'writer' (although I should probably be properly published for that), or not - my bookcases contain books on a writer's "Book of Poisons", a writer's guide to body trauma and a guide to the forensics of a zombie uprising, just to pick three at random. If I'm going to write something, I like to get it right, rather than put in what I hope is a rough approximation or guess and hope it sticks (Dan Brown and the writers of the movie Stigmata, I'm looking at you).

Or maybe it's because, when I find a character I really like and want to play and/or explore, I want to get as much detail as possible into them as possible, right down to birthday, scars or distinguishing features and favourite books. I want to make them both original and stand out - sometimes by not standing out, if the character's supposed to be an introvert as several of mine sometimes turn out to be. And if that involves geeking out and researching information that I'm likely to use only once, then so be it.

Books!

Sep. 15th, 2009 01:29 pm
sareini: default (books)
After waiting impatiently since I got up at silly o'clock to feed the cats, I got my delivery of books from Amazon just now. My new books consist of:

Zombie Holocaust: How the Living Dead Has Devoured Pop Culture
The Complete Idiot's Guide to Writing Erotic Romance
Zombie CSU: The Forensics of the Living Dead
Too Good to be True: The Colossal Book of Urban Legends
Body Trauma: A Writer's Guide to Wounds and Injuries
Book of the Dead: The Complete History of Zombie Cinema
How Not to Write a Novel: 200 Mistakes to Avoid at All Costs if You Ever Want to Get Published


One of my friends, on hearing this list of books, was silent for a long moment before asking... "please tell me you're not writing violent zombie sodomy..."

These books will soon be going onto my new bookcase, which will no doubt put Suki out somewhat as she's spent the last three days trying to dig through the bottom shelf.
sareini: default (discworld - millenium hand and shrimp)
First off, a NaNo update:

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
7,438 / 50,000
(14.9%)


As with every other year, I'm being my usual luddite self and handwriting my novel, because sitting at a computer and trying to write it just gives me too many distractions and I never get anything done. Plus, I can write pretty much anywhere in the house and I'm not limited to whenever Nick isn't using the computer that way. I don't think I'm doing too badly this year; yes, I'm a little behind on words as I didn't actually write on Tuesday due to watching Election coverage and on Wednesday due to recovering from watching election coverage, but catching up isn't too big of a problem, especially since I've already written over 1k words today and that's even with having to stop to do things on the computer every half hour.

In other news... still not got a computer of my own and so having to share Nick's. It's a strained situation, especially since a lot of the people I usually need to talk to are only on in the evening or at night... which is usually when Nick's on as well (not to mention the fact that I can't update lj whenever I feel like it like I used to...)

I've started playing around on Twitter a little, much to Nick's horror and dismay. I'm @Sareini over there.

Also, I think I broke another lightbulb yesterday.
sareini: default (Discworld - Exclamation marks)
It's October.

I've signed up for this year's National Novel-Writing Month in anticipation of November... but as of now I have no idea what I'm going to write. Well, to be exact I have several ideas, all vague, floating round my head, and I have no idea which, if any of them I'll end up using. Or how they could develop. Ah well.

This weekend I also got an invitation to my school reunion, which served to remind me that it's now been ten years since I was 18 (and nearly 11...). Plus, the idea of seeing most of those people ten years on - most of whom really did expect me to end up in a mental hospital - is slightly scary. Visions of Grosse Point Blank keep going through my head. Although I think the chances of me having to stab an assassin to death with a cheap pen in a hallway are somewhat slimmer. Sad, that. It would be interesting entertainment.

And now I'm off to wait in the cold (and probably rain) outside the doctors' to get an early-morning appointment. Bah.

Oh, and I have dragon eggs: Adopt one today! Adopt one today!

(my first two died :( )
sareini: default (000 cats)
The fic series I've been casually writing for my main RP hero in City of has unexpectedly bloomed. This is mainly because I've finally come up with a workable antagonist for him who fits into the story without too much jigging about.

There is really only one problem with this:

It'll mean I'll be trying to concentrate on this and on NaNo at the same time from now till... whenever it gets finished or the end of November at least, whichever comes sooner.

I suppose I could write City of fanfic for NaNo, using this plot as a springboard and writing big chunks of backstory for both Psychist and Tommy Bedlam (antagonist!) and re-writing (for NaNo) what I've already written to fit in... but I'm loathe to do that. For one, it'll mean I'll be way too easily distracted by the game in the form of "character research" (I know what I'm like). And for two... I'm not sure if I want to do fanfic this year. I mean, I use NaNo as a writing exercise - something to get me to write in large chunks, on a regular/daily basis, because otherwise I'm a sporadic writer at best despite all the stuff I've got on the computer and on paper round my room that needs to be finished - so whether or not I write something that can be published is of no real consquence to me. But on the other hand there's a part of me that always enjoys coming up with the world and new characters and plots and stuff...

Arrgh. Why can't my head just stick with one idea?

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